Today I am working on a Forum skin design. I want to enter Xfire Contest to win up to $3000 Wow can you believe that. I sure can't.
Thursday, 01 July 2010
There's something about a roast beef sandwich at 5 in the morning that's just bliss. Absolutely wonderful. Too bad I don't have the energy for another one. One should be enough. Nobody's been in anyone else's shoes. We all have our own private pains. Its how we deal with them, integrate them into our shared lives that defines who we are individually. I have this frustrating feeling like everything I write has been written before, like the same perception has been explained by someone else, and so I'm just copying. There is nothing new under the sun and Gods how finely I feel it, how precisely, how keenly. How many variations on the same can there truly be?
A blank sheet of lined paper, like this, is intimidating to me. I feel compelled to write, but when I open the notebook, and the blank page is before me- I clam up. Its like some twisted version of performance anxiety. Time and again this happens and it never fails to leave me frustrated and unfulfilled. As though I'm taking some cosmic test of merit, intelligence, and inevitably I think I'm going to fail.
Hey guys today I had a good day. I am trying to sell some of my web templates. When I grow up I am really thinking about being a computer designer or animater. I am also trying to learn PHP, MYsql, HTML, XHTML. I really want to get into coding because I am doing more designing than coding. So I end up having lots of Templatess instead of coding them to.
